Mystical Journey 💖

After a very public break up from pageantry. And a long standing battle with mental health and my anxiety. But because of this, I didn’t have anything I enjoyed, even with a complicated relationship.

So I did a hell of a lot of research on pageant systems. Trying to find the best system for myself. I narrowed it down to 3 systems and it was a very hard decision. In the end I decided I would represent my hometown, Bristol in the Miss Mystic Beauty (MMB) pageant system.

MMB Finalist: Miss Bristol 2021

I ended on this decision because I really loved the holistic approach to pageantry, MMB provided. I loved its unique opportunity to build a platform I was passionate about. And promotion of my best assets and a lovely sisterhood we have created.

My platform is Vulnerability for all. This encompasses sustainability, anti bullying and suicide awareness and prevention. All topics close to my heart. I have discussed about my past experiences including domestic violence and being bullied, leading to my own suicidal thoughts experience. It’s still a topic that’s very much taboo and with my platform I aim to break that taboo.

I am trained in suicide awareness and prevention, with Zero Alliance. A charity which provides detailed training on how you can help someone during a potentially suicidal time.

I also run a sustainable eco friendly brand with my mum called Positive Future Clothing. We sell clothing, tote bags and prints all printed in an renewable energy factory. And printed to order so there’s zero waste, packaged in cute recyclable packaging. You can check out our store here. And visit my blog post explaining this in detail here.

As my main appearance for this is taking part in the UWCB charity boxing event. Where I undergo 8 weeks of boxing training to then step out into the ring in a big charity boxing event. Those closest to me will know that this is a very big challenge for myself. If you’d like to support and sponsor me then you can sponsor me here. All money raised goes to Cancer Research UK.

I have also enjoyed using my finalist position to support fellow charity causes and campaigns. As well as take part in a few interviews and podcasts. All of which is shared via my pageant journey Facebook page. Just search on Facebook, Miss Bristol 2021 MMB. Or mmbmissbristol2021.

If you’ve enjoyed this, and looking for a great pageant family to be a part of then just check out Miss Mystic Beauty on social media.

Thank you all for reading this far 😉 ~RebeccaKLxo

#reclaimthesestreeets My Story

#reclaimthenight

It’s truly a sad thing to become aware of how women have to make so many changes, in order to feel safe while doing something as simple as just walking home. My partner doesn’t even have to think and will just go out without nearly enough precaution as I take. When I specifically think back, I can see it, and can say I am one of the 97% of women that has experienced sexual assault in varying forms, throughout my years.

I’ll begin my experience at about 6-8 years old, just moving into a new neighbourhood, and being befriended from our back garden, by two boys who also lived locally who were approximately 14/15 at the time. Nothing physical ever happened, but they did leer around, and make numerous suggestive comments and remarks.

11/12 years old, attending an after school club. As a shy and very quiet girl, with not many friends, I thought I’d make friends innocently at the club, which I did with a slightly older boy (15/16yo) Being young, I thought it was just how friends hanged out, in secluded areas of the secondary school, bathroom, outside and a dark hallway. You can imagine what happened next, he would kiss, and touch, and after a few weeks, (the club was an evening, once a week). this turned to the full sexual act. I stayed quiet, and didn’t protest out of fear. He raped me. I certainly did not consent, and as it was the first time, it is something I will never forget. But I did not report it, because I was young.

16-18 years old, during a admittedly rebellious stage, still as a nervous shy teenager, exploring online. Befriended by a certain boy (18-22yo) age unsure but seemed older then my age at the time, groomed and enticed me to meet him, usually using guilt masked with infatuation, to perform sexual acts, ranging from him receiving oral to the full sexual intercourse, in secluded public places. Continued multiple times, I never once consented, always resisted, persuaded into it until he was satisfied. Cutting me off, which at the time hurt. Retrospectively I see as a blessing, although because he blocked and cut me off, I had no way of reporting him.

18-20 years old, in a relationship with my ex, who was verbally and emotionally abusive, keeping me in check and controlled. I didn’t know any better and thought I was in love, in this long term relationship. He used physical violence and rape, to satisfy his urges. I can assure you I did not consent in this relationship when the violence became known. I have posted a blog post about this here.

22 years old, a few days before Christmas eve, shopping in my local Sainsburys store with my now partner. Checking out through the self checkouts, a man walked past closely to me and slapped my ass, so loudly, my partner knew what he did and shouted at him making a scene in the store. We talked to the checkout attendant who witnessed and the security guard, who checked footage as we reported to the police. But nothing came of it, as they lost him through the CCTV footage.

I’m now 26 years old, with my 3 year old son. And although I can say this is where my story ends, I have made sure I’m conscious about what I wear, I will cross streets to avoid passing males, I will always text my friend after a night out that I got home safe, I always am aware of my surroundings out on a night out, especially when drinking, and when walking alone especially at night, I will phone my partner or my mum, for the duration of the entire walk. All the time.

I will make sure I educate my son as he grows up, to know what consent it, and how to make women feel safe.

It’s a very important lesson. I haven’t ever immortalized it into words until now. But if I can help another women who’s experienced this, know they’re not alone. Or confirm it’s not just a thought in their head, then I am proud I’ve made this post.

~RebeccaKLxo

💉 Newest Tattoo Addition 💘

Those closest to me knows how much I loved and needed my ‘veritas aequitas’ chest tattoo. It was closure for a very dark past. I have much loved this tattoo. However from moving on from its story I’ve chosen to cover it up.

Before.

I went to Savannah Studios, and sent my ideas to them. They suggested Tasha to do my tattoo. I loved her initial mock up of design and there we proceeded. Got all booked in. Always excited when I book tattoos in. This has components like the album cover to my favourite album, which has my favourite song on and my favourite artwork.

Majority finished. I sat a full afternoon session, and got majority of the artwork completed. Still not a tattoo that was completely unbearable. I love getting them done.

Just finished.

Not finished yet, I had the finish appointment booked in, then lockdown 2.0 started so had to reschedule it till January 2021. So long wait, but I’m so happy with it. And that the healing process both physically and mentally. All that needs doing is to even out the components, and depending on how it heals, possibly re do some of the lines.

The current one 🖤

~RebeccaKLxo

A little Serial… 🖤

A Collaboration with Photowall.

As for many of us in the UK, head into a third lockdown. Being stuck inside at home, could be a chance to re-evaluate our home style, maybe even redecorate a little. Could you be looking for a pop of colour, a nature scene, or maybe looking for a statement wall for your children’s bedroom.

Luckily for you, Swedish company photowall have something for everyone. All amazing quality and price too. Plus a speedy delivery, I received my package within a few days. Although I know I ordered a hanging print.

As a horror fan, I took this opportunity to order a horror print. My all time favourite horror film, will always be the Texas chainsaw massacre.

Leather Face 🖤

I had the time of my life when my parcel was delivered. It was big. Almost my big K2SO Star Wars poster (from the cinema) big. I ordered 100cm x 140cm leather face print. On paper I didn’t think this was going to be that big.

Sizing up the job 😆

It came essentially flat packed, but included everything needed to hang it. Even the small detail of a nail. The instructions were clear and concise, certainly easy to follow. I found the most time consuming activity was threading the hanging thread onto the wooden top frame. That was one fiddly job. But it looks so good, I’m beyond happy with it!

Instructions 👍

I hung it in the hallway, to get an idea of it hanging, and the size. I hugely overestimated the size. It is now safely stored ready for when I move into my own place, so I can display it then with pride.

Hallway Hanging… 😅

If you like what you see, I encourage you to see their site link for yourself. And pick yourself up a cheeky little lockdown bargain. It’ll brighten your day!

If this inspires you to do a little injection of updating your home. I would love to see your purchases. Tag me on social media, @rebeccaklxo on Twitter and insta. With hashtag #rebeccaklxoxphotowall

I can’t wait to see your posts. Thank you for supporting and reading this post.

~RebeccaKLxo

Big Update <3

This year I have decided to continue to invest in what makes me happy. And that is my blog. Although not consistent content yet, I love writing for my blog. I love sharing this with everyone and my adventures. Like I really am excited for 2021.

First change is the domain.

I officially have a domain for the blog. We now reside at rebeccaklxo.com and this is so exciting!!!!!!! And with this, I now have a proper freelance email: rebecca.blogs@rebeccaklxo.com – Which is now live. This is the official email for collaborations and PR.

Categorized…

I always seem to struggle with what niche or category I’d label on my blog. I never really thought about it, as I cover such a broad range of subjects. This is now just simply a lifestyle blog. Although I will still make content including fashion, mental health, beauty and travel to name a few.

MOST IMPORTANTLY….

A big thank you, to everyone who follows, and likes my blog. You are the individuals who keep it possible for me to keep the blog running. For me knowing that I could help someone or inspire them. Makes me unbelievably happy. So thank you all! I appreciate it, and would love to give back. Email me from the email above, subject stating reader thanks, to access an offer.

Coming soon:

I have some things coming soon, if able too, including a few travel posts, fashion posts, sons national pageant post, education update post, future goals post, a collaboration with Photowall, to name but a few.

Check out some recent blog posts:

Mystical Journey 💖

After a very public break up from pageantry. And a long standing battle with mental health and my anxiety. But because of this, I didn’t have anything I enjoyed, even with a complicated relationship. So I did a hell of a lot of research on pageant systems. Trying to find the best system for myself. […]

#reclaimthesestreeets My Story

It’s truly a sad thing to become aware of how women have to make so many changes, in order to feel safe while doing something as simple as just walking home. My partner doesn’t even have to think and will just go out without nearly enough precaution as I take. When I specifically think back, […]

💉 Newest Tattoo Addition 💘

Those closest to me knows how much I loved and needed my ‘veritas aequitas’ chest tattoo. It was closure for a very dark past. I have much loved this tattoo. However from moving on from its story I’ve chosen to cover it up. I went to Savannah Studios, and sent my ideas to them. They […]

Thank you all x

RebeccaKLxo

Parting ways.

It’s very much like the saying ‘Always a bridesmaid, never the bride’ or being a fly on the wall.

A community that’s very much just way too cliquey. Certainly very ripe with favouritism.

I always push through all the negative mental health after every competition. Always feeling confident, despite the barrage of not good enough, not confident enough, not flattering for myself at all. No one likes you.

It’s always a constant battle, and one I’m losing at that. I’m done making myself feel shit, trying to pursue something I thought I was good at. It’s also one that I do not wish upon my son, or possible future children.

I don’t know why I do it to myself, but I will be fixing that. As rewarding it is to help charities, it’s also hard when you work so hard, and it’s never recognised. At all, it’s truly soul crushing.

That being said, my son will be keeping one pageant commitment until it’s over then after that, we’re both retiring.

Looking forward it’s all about my education and educational goals.

~RebeccaKLxo

One for the history books: Covid-19

Of course I’ll eventually end up somehow documenting this. One blog post during this tome, so I can look back on it in the years to come. Much like a journal post.

I’m 25, and my son is 2. When this pandemic started suddenly end of February 2020. I don’t remember much honestly. I remember keeping my son strictly under rules, for fear that he could catch it.

We both had our birthdays during the pandemic, making for a bleak 26th and 3rd birthday. Also limiting seeing family, especially the more vulnerable grandparents.

I worked in retail from the start of the very first lockdown, and have seen 100s of people not take it seriously, and actually take the piss when shopping.

One thing that’s for sure is the government made it 100 times worse. They have no idea what they are doing. All they’re doing, is what they’re doing the best, wasting millions of pounds.

All my big plans have been postponed, my big holiday to Australia, my first festival experience at Slam Dunk, my first time attending the Curve Fashion Festival.

It’s made for an interesting experience, being a student. Studying my Access to HE pathway course, half online and in the classroom one day a week, socially distanced and in masks.

This year has been an entire level of Jumanji. I really hope somehow the world resets on New Year’s Eve, and we all can have an amazing 2021. A girl can hope.

~RebeccaKLxo

Kanturo Eyewear: Product Review

Last Christmas I treated myself to a pair of glasses from Kanturo Eyewear. After seeing all the positivity surrounding this company on social media. This company specialising in blocking blue light rays. These are a surprisingly important buy, in today’s technology driven culture.

Kanturo Glasses 🤓

Blue light from device screens, is what can cause eye strain and migraines.

Past designs for blue light blocking glasses, were over cumbersome with thick coloured glass often yellow.

These are stylish, and I most say work. I wear them every evening during my wind down period. And I have noticed a significant difference in migraines, from screen time.

Check out their styles, at reasonable prices on their site.

~RebeccaKLxo

Positive Future Clothing ✨

During the bleakness of this pandemic, we are currently in as of today. It inspired me to do a fun little venture. I stumbled across a great site called Teemill. This is a store hosting site. I explored more, and then birthed my idea, Positive Future Clothing ✨

Along with my mum, Victoria we created Positive Future Clothing. An ethical, sustainable brand with thoughtful unique designs, supporting a range of topics. Not only do we do clothing for all, but we also do prints and tote bags. I’ll include some pictures here with a few designs I’d like to showcase. You can view the full store here.

No Planet B tee.

No Planet B Tee – This is available in a few colours. A simple tee with slogan on. This is available for women, men and children in a variety of sizes.

Adopt not Shop Collection

Adopt not Shop collection – This is available in clothing or as a tote bag. A cute design advocating to adopt pets instead of buying them. available in a variety of colours and sizes.

A variety of prints.
A variety of tote bags.

Tote bags and Prints – A variety of designs available in both sections of the store. From the ones pictured, to a few abstract ones. There’s something for everyone.

We are also looking for bloggers and brand ambassadors to work with. So let me know of interest and I can email our PR opportunity. Thank you for supporting our sustainable clothing brand.

Social Media Links-

Store: http://www.positive-future.teemill.com
Facebook page: Facebook.com/positive.futureclothing
Facebook VIP group: Positive Future Clothing ✨
Twitter: @positivefuturex
Instagram: @positive.futureclothing #positivefutureclothing

~Rebecca & Victoria